我又发牢骚了
wǒ yoù fā láo sāo le
你选择把日记交出来的时候
nǐ xuǎn zé bǎ rì jì jiāo chū lái de shí hòu
就应该想到会有这样的结果
jiù yīng gāi xiǎng dào huì yoǔ zhè yàng de jié guǒ
我有别的选择吗
wǒ yǒu bié de xuǎn zé ma
或者毁掉它
huò zhě huǐ diào tā
是我觉得没什么见不得人的
shì wǒ jué de méi shén me jiàn bù dé rén de
而且我相信
ér qiě wǒ xiāng xìn
总会有领导会懂的
zǒng huì yoǔ lǐng dǎo huì dǒng de
让你选择了对你来说
ràng nǐ xuǎn zé le duì nǐ lái shuō
您知道什么对我来说是最难的吗
nín zhī dào shén me duì wǒ lái shuō shì zuì nán de ma
我知道这一切
wǒ zhī dào zhè yī qiè
don't lose hope.
I have no hope left.
Mine is already shattered.
I'm sorry.
I'm complaining again.
It won't happen again.
Actually,
the moment you chose to
hand over your diary,
you should've known this could happen.
Did I have any other choice?
Of course you did.
You could have
refused to hand it over
or destroyed it.
I handed over my diary
because I felt I had nothing to hide.
And I believed that...
eventually, some leader would understand.
Your personality
made you choose the hardest path
for yourself.
Do you know what's hardest for me?
Your dignity.
Your privacy.
I know these things are...
more precious than life itself
to an intellectual.
Am I right?
don't lose hope.
I have no hope left.
Mine is already shattered.
I'm sorry.
我又发牢骚了
wǒ yoù fā láo sāo le
I'm complaining again.
以后不会了
yǐ hòu bú huì le
It won't happen again.
其实
qí shí
Actually,
你选择把日记交出来的时候
nǐ xuǎn zé bǎ rì jì jiāo chū lái de shí hòu
the moment you chose to
hand over your diary,
就应该想到会有这样的结果
jiù yīng gāi xiǎng dào huì yoǔ zhè yàng de jié guǒ
you should've known this could happen.
我有别的选择吗
wǒ yǒu bié de xuǎn zé ma
Did I have any other choice?
当然有
dāng rán yoǔ
Of course you did.
你可以
nǐ kě yǐ
You could have
选择不交
xuǎn zé bù jiāo
refused to hand it over
或者毁掉它
huò zhě huǐ diào tā
or destroyed it.
我交出日记
wǒ jiāo chū rì jì
I handed over my diary
是我觉得没什么见不得人的
shì wǒ jué de méi shén me jiàn bù dé rén de
because I felt I had nothing to hide.
而且我相信
ér qiě wǒ xiāng xìn
And I believed that...
总会有领导会懂的
zǒng huì yoǔ lǐng dǎo huì dǒng de
eventually, some leader would understand.
你的个性
nǐ de gè xìng
Your personality
让你选择了对你来说
ràng nǐ xuǎn zé le duì nǐ lái shuō
made you choose the hardest path
最难的
zuì nán de
for yourself.
您知道什么对我来说是最难的吗
nín zhī dào shén me duì wǒ lái shuō shì zuì nán de ma
Do you know what's hardest for me?
你的尊严
nǐ de zūn yán
Your dignity.
你的隐私
nǐ de yǐn sī
Your privacy.
我知道这一切
wǒ zhī dào zhè yī qiè
I know these things are...
more precious than life itself
to an intellectual.
Am I right?